"Let me do it!"-- No, no, help me, please!

Oh, humbling, humbling, humbling.
Don't you love it?

It was one of those things I knew was going to happen, but I ignored it and pretended it wasn't going to.

I started my student teaching off with the idea, "Let me do it! I want to jump right in, full tilt." In my head, I wanted an experience as close to 'real' teaching as possible. With as little help from my mentor as possible. The classroom is mine. I do the planning. I do the lessons. These are MY students.

And, oh, boy. I'm realizing I need more help than I thought! Not that I'm a terrible teacher, I'm just seriously a novice. I need training wheels.

I was thinking I would be 'cheating' to have my mentor teacher help me so much. But I've realized that it's okay! That's what she's there for, duh! She really wants to start doing more planning together and to see my lessons ahead of time.

I'm definitely humbled. I just honestly thought I could do it. Or, well, I wanted to try. I was always one of those kids that was like, "No, Mommy! Let me do it!" and pushed her away as she tried to help me, show me the best way.

I like learning things on my own and figuring it out. But I need a mentor. I need someone to tell me what could work and what won't. And there is nothing wrong with that! It doesn't make me incompetent or a bad teacher. (Which are my biggest fears).

And my mentor is definitely the BEST! I'd be silly, and stupid, not to glean all the wisdom I could from her. She's been there and done that and knows what she's doing.

So, here we go! Eight more weeks. Eight more weeks. It'll be good :)